Friday, November 16, 2007

Saturday

So, my plans for breakfast tomorrow morning may fall through. Mom called tonight to say that she's feeling quite ill.

In that case, I'm going to go over to their house and borrow a car for a while. I want to go to the park and take photos. I think I'll also go to Ikea, the thrift store, and maybe to Kensington. The idea of spending the day wandering some of my favorite parts of the city on my own with a camera sounds appealing at the moment.

Just at this moment I'm going a bit stir crazy, and feeling a bit lonely. While I planned (and plan to enjoy) a quiet weekend - at this moment I think I might lose my mind if I don't find someone to chat with - hard when you only live with one other person and she's out for the evening!

If I had a car right now, I'd drive to the edge of the city and stare at the sky. I think it's probably cloudy, but I feel like I need a break from the city - could use a chance to breathe.

From Two Years Ago

I was just looking through archives of my blog from two years back, skimming and reading, and came across this paragraph, written about two weeks after I was healed. I laughed, because the paragraph is so descriptive of the space of life I've been inhabiting again these last few months - this crazy Jesus space. I wrote:

"...The trouble is, I don't want to go back to the low point I was at just over two weeks ago. The last two weeks and a bit have been insane, but so good. I have known God's presence in ways I would never have expected, or even wanted, but I am tired. I don't want to go back - I'm loving this new place in my journey - loving that breakthroughs are finally happening, but boy is it tiring. I think I know why the ancient monks spent so many hours alone!" (you can find the original post in it's entirety here.)

Evening Plans

I'm considering taking myself on a date tonight. A date with myself. To a movie. I've been wanting a good solo movie experience for a while, and there are several films out right now that I would be interested in seeing...

So (and I'm still debating doing this tonight - I may push it to tomorrow night), these are the five movies (in no apparent order) on the list of ones I'd drop the appropriate amount of money to get a ticket to see...

  1. Into the Wild
  2. Dan in Real Life
  3. August Rush
  4. Across the Universe
  5. The Assassination of Jesse James by the Coward Robert Ford

Has anyone out there seen any of these? Recommendations?

Free and Joyful

My facebook status today reads:

Lisa is feeling free and joyful.

And it's true. A nice change from some of the other days this week.

I taught a Bible study last night, and it went well. So much fun to talk about healing, wholeness, redemption and shalom with the kids who were sitting in my living room.

I'm wearing jeans today - I LOVE wearing jeans to work.

I'm in the midst of praying through a huge decision, and I've received helpful feedback from some friends that has in some ways released my heart to dream more fully and deeply. I think I know which way the decision will go (and it's not the way I would have initially guessed), though I still need to talk to a couple more people, and do a little more praying.

I'm loving the wandering directions my heart has been taking lately - so many things that God is stirring - hopes and plans - dreams and wishes.

I'm loving that I'm feeling free and able to dream again - that my heart is being stirred once more.

I wrote an email this morning that will hopefully lead to being approved by my church as a short-term missionary (allowing me to raise some financial support for my upcoming trip), and another email to schedule a time to share on a Sunday morning about my plans with the congregation.

Have I mentioned that in just over two months I'm going to Malta - for a month? To pray and facilitate a prayer room for others. To be with dear friends? So excited about this and the major step of freedom that it is.

I loved the brief moments when the sunrise painted the sky this morning as I walked to the train.

I'm thankful for the friends who remind me on a daily basis that I am never alone - that I journey with Jesus, and with a community of people (however scattered across the nation and the world) who love Jesus and love me.

I'm feeling free and joyful today, and I'm so thankful for that.