Friday, September 29, 2006

the sun on my face again

Just thought I'd stop in here for a minute. I'm sitting in my friend's computer room in Langley, catching up on a few emails and reading a few blogs.

I think most of you know that the last half of August and all of September was a really deep and struggling time for me. That there was stuff going on in our family life, and stuff going on in my church life that created a great deal of pain and wrestle. That I was tired and worn and dry. Feeling dead and exhausted from thinking and feeling pain so deeply. I haven't cried so much in years.

But the tears, in the words of a Karla Adolphe song "are dampening my soul". I can breathe here. I needed this week away from Calgary, the space and the distance from the things that troubled me. My soul was softened, raked over and bruised this past month. I feel the sun on my face again.

I just wanted to let you know that I feel new things sprouting, there is a refreshment here, a sense of quiet, a knowledge of the rightness of some of the decisions I made in the last week.

And I'm oh so grateful to Jesus for that.